{"id":48517,"date":"2026-06-11T13:08:26","date_gmt":"2026-06-11T10:08:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kilosorunum.com\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/Tekrar-yine-acikladi.jpg"},"modified":"2026-06-11T13:09:34","modified_gmt":"2026-06-11T10:09:34","slug":"tekrar-yine-acikladi-2","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/kilosorunum.com\/habercim\/foto-galeri\/ucuzlerimden-biri-dogumdan-alti-ay-sonra-vefat-etti\/attachment\/tekrar-yine-acikladi-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Tekrar yine a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131"},"author":2,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/kilosorunum.com\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/Tekrar-yine-acikladi.jpg'><img width=\"300\" height=\"200\" src=\"https:\/\/kilosorunum.com\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/Tekrar-yine-acikladi-300x200.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kilosorunum.com\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/Tekrar-yine-acikladi-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/kilosorunum.com\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/Tekrar-yine-acikladi.jpg 559w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>Foto\u011fraf\u0131 elime ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda kalbim g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs kafesimi k\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kacakm\u0131\u015f gibi atmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Foto\u011fraftaki \u00e7ocuk on sekiz ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. G\u00f6zleri, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n dalgas\u0131, \u00e7ene yap\u0131s\u0131&#8230; A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da, arka bah\u00e7ede arkada\u015flar\u0131yla g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fen ikizlerimin t\u0131pat\u0131p ayn\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131. Bir damla ya\u015f s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp foto\u011fraf\u0131n kenar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. O ya\u015f\u0131yordu. Benim k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck o\u011flum, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fczlerin kay\u0131p par\u00e7as\u0131 hayattayd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Notun geri kalan\u0131n\u0131 okumak i\u00e7in ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerimi k\u0131rp\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Hastanede yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m o gece, annen ve doktor bir anla\u015fma yapm\u0131\u015f. \u00c7ocu\u011fu olmayan, \u00e7ok zengin ama \u00e7aresiz bir aileye beni satm\u0131\u015flar. Annen onlara \u00fc\u00e7 \u00e7ocu\u011fa bakamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131, bunun sizi mahvedece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015f ama as\u0131l sebep, o ailenin annene \u00f6dedi\u011fi y\u00fckl\u00fc miktardaki paraym\u0131\u015f. Beni b\u00fcy\u00fcten ailem bana hep iyi davrand\u0131 ama ger\u00e7ekleri saklayamad\u0131lar. Ge\u00e7en hafta her \u015feyi \u00f6\u011frendim. Bug\u00fcn re\u015fit oldum anne. Art\u0131k o kad\u0131n\u0131n beni veya b\u00fcy\u00fcten ailemi tehdit etmesine izin vermeyece\u011fim. Arka bah\u00e7edeki b\u00fcy\u00fck me\u015fe a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f k\u0131sm\u0131nday\u0131m, soka\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fesinde seni bekliyorum. L\u00fctfen yaln\u0131z gel.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Odadan d\u0131\u015far\u0131, koridora do\u011fru lo\u015f bir sessizlik hakimdi ama pencereden d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan gelen sesler duyuluyordu. Pencereye do\u011fru adeta bir hayalet gibi s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm. Perdeyi hafif\u00e7e aralay\u0131p arka bah\u00e7eye bakt\u0131m. E\u015fim mangal\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda sosisleri \u00e7eviriyor, ikizler kendi aralar\u0131nda \u015fakala\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Ve orada&#8230; Bah\u00e7e koltu\u011funa kurulmu\u015f, elinde so\u011fuk limonatas\u0131yla g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen annem oturuyordu. On sekiz y\u0131l boyunca benimle birlikte a\u011flayan, ac\u0131m\u0131 payla\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f gibi yapan, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131 ve torununun gelece\u011fini bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da \u00e7alan o kad\u0131n. \u0130\u00e7imde filizlenen \u00f6fke, on sekiz y\u0131ll\u0131k yas\u0131m\u0131n k\u00fcllerini yak\u0131p kavuran bir ate\u015fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Kutuyu yata\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131na, kimsenin bulamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir yere ittim. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 sildim ve y\u00fcz\u00fcme, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi sahte, ta\u015f gibi bir ifade yerle\u015ftirdim. Merdivenleri yava\u015f\u00e7a, her bir basamakta i\u00e7imdeki g\u00fcc\u00fc toplayarak indim.<\/p>\n<p>Bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, s\u0131cak yaz havas\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme vurdu. Annem beni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. &#8220;Pastay\u0131 getirmedin mi hayat\u0131m?&#8221; diye sordu o tatl\u0131, zehirli sesiyle.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine, ruhunun en karanl\u0131k k\u00f6\u015fesini g\u00f6rebiliyormu\u015fum gibi bakt\u0131m. &#8220;Birazdan getirece\u011fim anne,&#8221; dedim buz gibi bir sesle. &#8220;\u00d6nce kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne, \u00e7\u00f6pleri \u00e7\u0131karmam gerek.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Bana tuhaf bir bak\u0131\u015f att\u0131 ama \u00fcstelemedi. Kocam ve ikizlerim kendi d\u00fcnyalar\u0131na dalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131, kimse bah\u00e7enin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc fark etmedi. Yan kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p, soka\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fesindeki b\u00fcy\u00fck me\u015fe a\u011fac\u0131na do\u011fru ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131 h\u0131zland\u0131rd\u0131m. Dizlerim titriyordu ama ad\u0131mlar\u0131m kararl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>A\u011fac\u0131n g\u00f6lgesine yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, s\u0131rt\u0131 bana d\u00f6n\u00fck, elleri cebinde duran uzun boylu genci g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ayak seslerimi duydu\u011funda yava\u015f\u00e7a arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Zaman durdu. G\u00f6zleri benimkilerle bulu\u015ftu\u011funda, on sekiz y\u0131ll\u0131k koca bir bo\u015fluk an\u0131nda kapanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Foto\u011fraftakinden bile daha \u00e7ok benziyordu karde\u015flerine. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde hem bir korku, hem de devasa bir umut vard\u0131. Dudaklar\u0131 titredi.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Anne&#8230;?&#8221; diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 \u00e7atall\u0131 bir sesle.<\/p>\n<p>Ko\u015ftum. B\u00fct\u00fcn o kay\u0131p y\u0131llar\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6fkesini ve tarifsiz sevgisini kollar\u0131ma s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rarak ona s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131m. H\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131m soka\u011f\u0131n sessizli\u011fini bozarken, onun da bana sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 omzuma g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hissettim. O benim Kuzey&#8217;imdi. Ve art\u0131k ailemiz ger\u00e7ekten tamamlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. 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